17 June, 2014

Sometimes easier is harder

Today was gentle yoga with Jackie.

It was definitely slow and gentle, without anything that would elevate the heart rate or break a sweat. But it was still noisy in my mind, today. Harder than a power class. It was definitely good to go deeper into stretches, but it seems like my mind got busy when the body got quiet. And then, for whatever reason, that devolved into negative thoughts about myself. I started the class with my t-shirt on, which is normally not the way I practice, due to how much sweating there is. But since the shirt was loose and flapping around, it was bothering me, so I took it off. But then, when we were doing seated stretches, I started getting uncomfortable and self-conscious about my body. I know that sounds ridiculous, but that's what was happening. So that was a mixture of negative self-talk and then more self-berating for why it is that I am that uncomfortable.

But it's just one class. And it's over. Tomorrow is a new day.

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