05 February, 2014

Noisy mind

Today was vinyasa home practice. Again.

I see a pattern developing here.

It's been difficult keeping my head focused lately, both on and off the mat. I feel like I have so much to do, but I find myself not wanting to do the things that are most important, instead getting caught up in little puzzle-like tasks that are more entertaining to me. It's almost like I am looking for the Angry Birds of tasks to do. The distraction tasks. I have been complaining a lot lately about not having time to get things done, but not just setting to doing them.

Today's practice was about 47 minutes. It was a good practice, in the sense of body and breath. But it was not as good, in the sense of presence. My mind kept wandering. First, I would wander to the logistics of all the things I need to get done. Then I would wander to berating myself for having a bad plan, bad strategy, things aren't going to work. Then I would wander to the minutiae of logistics. And then, I would drag myself back to what was happening on the mat.

It's sort of what my work has been like lately, in a microcosm, on the mat.

It would be so much less painful to just get shit done.

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