26 January, 2014

Supposed rested but still tired

Friday was vinyasa with Elizabeth.

I left work a little early to take the class.

It's pretty easy to start worrying about things. Whatever they are... relationships... work... money... it's easier to worry than not to worry, which feels backwards since it's more difficult to live life in a state of worry than not. Why is it that the thing that is actually easier requires more discipline?

Normally I would not skip a day after having only done yoga one day. Meaning: I normally like to always do at least two consecutive days before taking a rest. I don't know why I am so rigid about that, but I guess it's got to do with striving to go every day. If you take 2 out of 3 days off then you're far behind on that goal of going every day.  But yesterday I just didn't feel like doing yoga. And it's funny to say that, because Elizabeth was just telling us on Friday that "discipline" is doing something that you don't want to do. But I am not sure that it's a lack of discipline to not do something that you don't want to do. With respect to the flip side, I think it depends. There was time to do it. But I was still tired. And I just didn't see the point of dragging myself through it just to say that I did it. Just to say that I had discipline.

Of course, now it's Sunday, and I also don't want to do it. I really just want to sit and watch more episodes of "Breaking Bad" and vegetate. I don't want to do it today. But I am about to do it. As soon as I finish writing this entry, I will do yoga. The only thing to be determined is whether I will find a class on hitPLAYyoga, or guide myself. But it's happening. I can't imagine it's going to be good, but it probably will be fine. Because once I start doing it, I will come around, and remember why I want to do yoga.

I had a little bit of an easy period here, without too much business. I mean, it wasn't smooth sailing all the way, but relatively easy. And now it is going to get a little unbalanced again with work schedule. I have to try not to think too many steps ahead about everything that is coming, because that's worrying. And that's the opposite of what I want to be doing.

And thus, the yoga.

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