12 December, 2013

Not here. Not now.

Today was vinyasa with Sharon Wells on hitPLAYyoga.

I shut off the class about 46 minutes into the hour long class. I want to blame the class for not holding me. But my head wasn't in the game from the start. It definitely didn't help that she did at least 3 different sequences in the class that absolutely required visuals to know what the heck she was saying, and that certainly did irritate me, because it's an audio class, and there should not be ambiguity about what the poses are.

But, of course, there's an opportunity for me to relax with what is.

And I chose not to.

Today I spun off into a land of anxiety and rumination about the minutiae of some elements of my job. This is a wheel spinning that I have done many times in the past. When presented with options about the little stuff, I end up spending all my energy worrying, obsessing, spinning over this little stuff, almost as an excuse (perhaps) to not deal with any of the big stuff.

Need to get out of it, because it does not feel good. And all that rumination devolves into negative impressions of self, and fairly negative attitude toward others as well.

Today is just one of those days.

I don't really want to complain any more than I just have, so I'll stop there.

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