23 April, 2012

Okay I am ready to magically feel good again

Today was Power Vinyasa with Cassandra.

I took the noon class. It was a planned and much needed escape from a busy day at work. Great to be on the mat in Cassandra's class again. Not so great to be absolutely hurting and dragging. Okay, that's a bit of a dramatic exaggeration. But some truth to it. I felt so weak in my shoulders and legs. The Crescent Lunge series that she's been doing the last few classes is always hard, but today, I just felt like my legs were giving out so quickly. The Warrior II poses and Side Angles had my shoulders feeling like they just couldn't hold my arms up.

I am not sure what the root cause is. Am I worn out from slight sleep deprivation? Am I rusty from taking four days off? Am I under stress at work, and it's causing my mind to be getting in the way more than usual? I suppose all are possible, but who knows.

Today was a very emotional class for some reason. There was a lot right under the surface. When Cassandra said "Rest... because the work is always coming..." I nearly started shaking on the mat, feeling very strong emotions. I guess I fear that work will always be coming, and that it might get to be too much. Right now it isn't too much, and I do try my hardest to manage work. But I also want to do a good job and do what's expected, or more. So the idea that work is always coming just felt a bit scary on this particular day.

After class, I was talking with a fellow yogi, and mentioning that every time I get into a stretch like this where everything is dragging, there will inevitably come a day where, for no particular reason, I suddenly feel great.

Let that day be tomorrow.

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