10 April, 2012

Check in with intention

Today was Vinyasa with Whitney.

It's been a while since I took her class. Today the repetitive story is once again about my shoulder. I won't belabor it. There is pain. Had to skip Crow pose because my attempt at it hurt too much. The transition through Chaturanga does not feel great. Lowering is rough. Going to Upward Dog is rough. I can keep those under control.

Okay. Enough about that.

Near beginning of class, Whitney made a metaphor about "tiny arrivals" referring to being present on the mat, in our practice. Somehow, this phrase triggered emotions in me. She also talked a lot about compassion, and set the collective intention for the class around the idea that "happiness is a choice." It got me thinking about how I have been getting sucked into some drama at work lately. I would not go so far as to say I am creating it. But I have been participating in it. I don't know how to skirt it completely because the existent drama impacts my productivity. But I don't know if I am finding the shortest, pain-free path around it.

The subject line around intention today was really more about the intention of this blog. I am finding it hard to find depth or revelation or even a story worth telling each day. I don't want to write something that is unreadable. But I also know that this is a story of practice. It was bound to be stretches of mundane punctuated by rare insights. And it's really supposed to be for me. But I can't help but get sidetracked on whether it's readable or interesting or valuable to anyone.

Cassandra's words come to mind (of course):

"The work begins when you want it to end..."

See you tomorrow.

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